Penal dream

I have not forgotten you
I forgive you
And in forgiving, you are cast out
Forgiveness does not mean allowance
Of further abuse
You may not return

You are the last, though
Which has nothing to do with it being you
Don’t get the idea that it is endless love
That I am carrying a torch

No, the torch is extinguished
For all men
I cannot imagine dating a man
Post Epstein
Post Trump
Post a rapist pedophile liar in the White House
And all his rich male white friends
Fucking everyone else over
Metaphorically
And young girls in truth

Certainly this is a small revenge
An older woman
Turning from all men?
Who cares when they can abuse
Nubile young girls
Who fall for a moneyed lie
Or who are sold by family
Across the borders
Of countries

But it is the small revenges
That add up
I am not the only one

It’s just a small group to start with
Like an insect bite
But sometimes an infection starts
Smolders deep
And sepsis,
Blood poisoning
Can lead to death

And maybe the parents
Will think twice
If they aren’t starving
About giving you
Their nubile daughters
For any price

I hope
This pandemic
Shuts you down

A pandemic
Of aging failing starving
Pedophiles
Whose penile longings
Turn penal

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I always know the start of a poem, but I don’t ever know where it will go. I am always surprised and this went very dark. But maybe it also goes to a light place for young men and women, that history will not keep repeating this abuse.

I took the photograph in Hawaii.

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: protect.

beach walk

My daughter is home and we went on a beach walk yesterday! The stupid oxygen keeps me from going fast. She went for a bike ride afterwards. Hooray!

Yesterday evening she brought up social distancing and how careful she should be. She has about 5 friends who are home that she is going to walk with. I am still wearing a mask over my oxygen tubing most places. She will unmask if they are vaccinated and they don’t have a cold or anything else. Even a cold would make me worse at this point. It makes me grumpy to be vulnerable, but I appreciate the discussion.

my apple tree likes the fence

My wolf river apple tree likes the fence between it and the road.

I took this a few days ago. The tree is preferentially growing toward the fence and the part that is below and behind the fence is in full bloom and gorgeous. The rest of the tree is budding but not in full bloom.

What does it like about the fence? Shelter from the cars in the road? The fence is to the west, so it shouldn’t do much for warmth, but that could be part of it. Maybe it does not like the car exhaust.

Maybe I should extend the fence a little higher in that corner. Just to please my tree….