The boring vampire

I meet a boring vampire
when I am boring too
when I am worrying with angst and ire
and have too much to do

It’s in the time of covid
We start to walk the beaches
The vampire won’t take paxlovid
His ego overreaches

He says his life’s perfection
He says his brain can’t fit his head
He has no belief in resurrection
That’s probably because he’s dead

I wonder that he lies
Does he think that I don’t see?
The person that believes the lies
Must be him, not me

I grieve before he ousts me
He says he’ll always be my friend
And he speaks of longing to be free
I know there will be an end

I know before he ousts me
He says we’re friends forever
I blink and calmly see
That it will soon be never

Some vampires don’t need staking
They do it to themselves
Isolation of their making
Hoarding blood upon their shelves

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The photograph is a “swamp robin” (Varied Thrush) from my yard, December 2022.

This has nothing to do with the Ragtag Daily Prompt: festival. Except that swamp robins are very festive.

East Beach

I hiked East Beach on Marrowstone Island yesterday. The wind was howling! It was not warm, but I was dressed in a foul weather sailing coat and rain pants and hiking boots. Gloves and hat. Ready for spring, right?

It was beautiful. I was alone on the beach. I did slip once and bruised my left hamstring! How annoying. I should leave a dashboard note of which way I’ve gone.

I did find some agates. I did not stay out for more than an hour, too cold. I walked into the wind so I was warmed coming back. Here is the prettiest agate.

What a fabulous hike! I was glad I’d guessed right for outer wear. The beaches always feel ten to twenty degrees colder, especially when it was windy. Does Marrowstone Island qualify as an esoteric destination? At any rate, I love it.

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: esoteric.

Shattered

Is the wave, the water being shattered?

Or is it really the rock that is shattered, bit by bit, over time?

Stone shaped heart

your heart is an agate
clear stone

you have won
sort of
you think

but I am water
I am waves
I will smash you against the other rocks
and wear you down

I am water
I carve you like a laser
you wear my name
carved in your stone shaped heart

it is already written there
on your stone shaped heart
faint, because water wears slowly

water wearing stone
over time

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written in April 2022

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: shattered.

Soft my heart

Soft my heart forgives and lets go,
lets go of reconciling. We won’t. I won’t.
I have waited long enough. I forgive all
and I am done waiting. I let it all go and
walk forward into a different life.
The Sufis lead me: the teacher must judge when
the student is ready. I am not a teacher.
I am always a student. I want to learn
always and change. I let go. Farewell, my dears,
you still have my love but you do not have me.
I no longer care, I don’t long for your love,
I let you live your stuffed and twisted lives
in peace, without me importuning you,
to listen to think to grow with me
and you don’t want to so I am free.

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Written February 17, 2024. As with most of my poems, I don’t know how it will end until I write it. Poem as prayer. The ending surprised me, too.

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: reconcile.

I don’t know who took the photograph. From left to right, my sister, cousin, me, cousin, taken at Lake Matinenda in Ontario, Canada.

Stitch

I like to play with word cliches
Geraniums red and chrysanthemums white
As I wander busy through my day
Delphiniums blue, all are dark at night
Least said, soonest mended
Except for murder, rape and pillage
Loose lips sink ships, war ended
Sinner gossip round the village
Time will mend a broken heart
A stitch in time will save nine
You’ll never finish if you don’t start
Mend that heart and change the rhyme
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Your love grows daily, what a wonder

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: absence.

Covid 19 and the heart

This is from the University of New Mexico Roam Echo PASC (Post Acute Sequelae of Covid-19) talk on 11/9/2023 over Zoom.

Cardiovascular Outcomes in Post-COVID Conditions
Jeffrey Hsu, MD, PhD, FACC, Assistant Professor, Division of Cardiology – University of California, Los Angeles Health and Founder, COVID Cardiology Program – University of California, Los Angeles 

I am going to include the references in the order that Dr. Hsu talked about them. This is a sobering and upsetting lecture with the research showing a post Covid-19 increase in cardiovascular risk factors (cholesterol, hypertension, diabetes), and an increase in cardiovascular events in people with no previous cardiovascular diagnosis including heart attack, stroke, pulmonary embolus, blood clots and sudden death.

I don’t expect the general population to read the studies, but look at a few of them. It is very very impressive, the amount of work being done. Now let’s explore the talk and boil it down to three sentences for primary care to explain in clinic. Right. (You can always skip to the last two paragraphs if you get overwhelmed, and come back later.)

Part 1: The Research.

The first paper is about veterans without cardiovascular disease, followed for one year after Covid-19, matched with a cohort who did not have Covid-19. This is before immunization was available. They were studying the heart and cardiovascular risk. The veterans who had had Covid-19 infection were twice as likely to be diagnosed with cardiovascular risk then the veterans who had not had Covid-19. The risk was higher in the veterans with more severe Covid-19, the risk was present in all subgroups: old, young, male, female, with or without other risk factors. At two years out, the people who had been hospitalized for Covid-19 still had a persistent increased risk of death and cardiovascular incidents (heart attack, stroke, sudden death, blood clots).

To be clear, this is NOT Long Covid patients. This is just a cohort of veterans who had Covid-19. This would indicate that everyone who had Covid-19 has an increased cardiovascular risk.

Here is the first paper: 1. https://www.nature.com/articles/s41591-022-01689-3

Two more papers looked at more general populations who got Covid-19 before the vaccine was available and found the same thing. The veterans tended to be older and more male patients, but the general population studies found the same pattern in women and younger patients. Papers:

2. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-risk-of-heart-disease-after-covid/, “Health modeller Sarah Wulf Hanson at the University of Washington’s Institute for Health Metrics and Evaluation in Seattle used Al-Aly’s data to estimate how many heart attacks and strokes COVID-19 has been associated with. Her unpublished work suggests that, in 2020, complications after COVID-19 caused 12,000 extra strokes and 44,000 extra heart attacks in the United States, numbers that jumped up to 18,000 strokes and 66,000 heart attacks in 2021. This means that COVID-19 could have increased the rates of heart attack by about 8% and of stroke by about 2%. β€œIt is sobering,” Wulf Hanson says.

3.https://www.nature.com/articles/s41591-023-02521-2

Non hospitalized patients had decreased risk for some cardiovascular problems but not all and still had significantly higher risk than people who had not had Covid-19. I am busily thinking UH-OH, this is really bad, in this lecture.

He stated that the data is not in yet about vaccination, whether it lowers the cardiovascular damage compared to unvaccinated.

The initial study was on veterans, mostly male and mostly white, but then was replicated in other similar studies that were not on veterans, but on a general population.

From the second and third study, 700,000 patients with a mean age 40 and more than half female, were studied for new cardiovascular disease in the year following Covid-19 and found an increased risk of death within one year, 0.34% vs 0.28% HR 1.6. That was in 2020, a nonvaccinated population. Another study showed similar results, 13,000 patients with Covid-19 and 26,000 without, average age 51. There was a similar risk increase in cardiovascular disease and an increased risk of death within one year.

4. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/eclinm/article/PIIS2589-5370(22)00349-2/fulltext

5. https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama-health-forum/fullarticle/2802095

So do other infections do the same thing? Studies of acute risk of myocardial infarction risk after influenza, done before the pandemic, indicate an increased risk of myocardial infarction within one week after infection, but not beyond that week. So Covid-19 is really really nasty to our cardiovascular system.

6. https://www.nejm.org/doi/10.1056/NEJMoa1702090

7. https://www.nejm.org/doi/10.1056/NEJMra1808137

Pneumonia and sepsis can increase risk of cardiovascular disease, but there have not been the extensive studies as in Covid-19. More and better studies.

One to two years after diagnosis, there is increased cardiovascular and cerebrovascular risk, both:

  1. Cardiovascular risk factors, worsening after covid
  2. Thrombosis risk

8. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/landia/article/PIIS2213-8587(22)00044-4/fulltext

The risk of is up diabetes 40% in the post Covid-19 patients. That does not mean that 40% are diagnosed with diabetes, but that the risk is higher after Covid-19. For example, if in the non-Covid cohort 100 of 1000 40 year olds develop type 2 diabetes, then it’s 140 of 1000 in the post Covid-19 group.

The risk of dyslipidemia in 50,000 patients went up 24%. Dyslipidemia means increased LDL cholesterol or increased triglycerides and lower HDL or all of them.

9. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/landia/article/PIIS2213-8587(22)00355-2/fulltext

10. https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/10.1161/HYPERTENSIONAHA.123.21174

Hypertension is up too and weight gain.

11. https://www.nature.com/articles/s41577-022-00762-9

New onset hypertension is up 22% in hospitalized patients post Covid-19 and 11% in unhospitalized post Covid patients.

Myocardial infarction (heart attack) and ischemic stroke both go up. Ischemic stroke is the more common kind of stroke and is the clotting version. Bleeding strokes are less common.

Why does Covid-19 do this? What is the mechanism? The studies are pointing towards thromboembolism as the mechanism in both increased cardiovascular risk factors (dyslipidemia, hypertension, stroke, heart attack, clots). Thrombosis means clots. Remember the talk about micro-clots? (My write up here: https://drkottaway.com/2023/04/14/xeno-or-infection-phobic/). Micro-clots can lead to bigger clots. A clot in a heart artery causes a heart attack; in the brain an ischemic stroke; a clot in the leg can break into pieces and block the lung arteries. Irritation in the heart and the arteries can increase blood pressure. I’m not sure how it can increase diabetes, but it does.

Next he shows a slide about thrombosis and how complex it is. Sars covid-19 seems to promote perfect storm of events that leads to environment for thrombosis in multiple ways.

Covid-19 infects epithelial cells, causes a hyperactive immune response, orchestrates subsequent response, causes platelet hyperactivation and then hyperactive innate immune response, causes damage to glycocalyx that protects and vascular endothelial injury, decreases antithrombogenic and increases prothrombogenic activity which promotes thrombosis in the vasculature, platelet activation and coagulopathy. Got that? No? Me either, my last immune system class was in 1988 when I was working at the National Institutes of Health. It’s bad, meaning it can kill us or cause damage that is disabling.

12. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(20)30937-5/fulltext

My notes are a bit disjointed here: The endothelial cells (which line arteries) express H2 receptors that Covid-19 virus needs to enter the cells. The H2 receptors are also in glomerular capillary loops (kidneys), and immune cells and cause apoptosis of lung endothelial cells. Apoptosis is a form of programmed cell death that occurs in multicellular organisms and some eukaryotic microorganisms. So you don’t want your lung cells doing that. Lung, small bowel, and pulmonary microvasculature can all be affected.

13. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/landia/article/PIIS2213-8587(22)00355-2/fulltext

Plaque in human coronary vessels, in the immune cells, spike and Sars cov 2 identified in coronary artherosclerotic plaque.

Direct on coronary and cerebrovascular cells. (Ok, I don’t know what I meant by this note.)

Part II: Now what? What is our approach to healing this?

There is still limited data! (The clinical trials are roaring along but they take time.) Here are a bunch of studies, all using blood thinners. Blood thinners include aspirin, plavix, heparin, enoxaparin or apixaban. Do NOT start aspirin at home at this point, because when you add a blood thinner, there is a risk of bleeding, including bleeding stroke and intestinal bleeding. So far, the studies are discouraging.

Aspirin 150Mg Recovery trial: no difference in mortality: major bleeding 1.6% vs 1/0 % Lancet 2022. This is a double baby aspirin dose, 30 days in study, no benefit in acute setting.

14. https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(20)30937-5/fulltext

Non critically ill hosp patients ACTIV 4A trial P2Y12 inhibitor – heparin alone or clopidigril (plavix) plus heparin, no benefit, major bleeding 2.0% vs 0.7% so worse in the both group.

15. https://www.nejm.org/doi/10.1056/NEJMoa2103417

16. https://doi.org/10.1001/jama.2021.17272

Harmed patients with severe disease.

ACTIV-4B aspirin or apixiban in outpatient, stopped early, event rate low, higher rates of minor bleeding in the 5mg apixiban group.

Feedom covid 19 trial: Non ICU Hospitalized, compared prophylactic heparin to enoxaparin or apixaban. Signal to provide benefit, lower rates of death and intubation, similar bleeding rates

17. https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0735109723045278?via%3Dihub

So what does our Post Covid Cardiologist recommend to physicians and patients:

First year post covid: look for cardiovascular symptoms.

Screen for risk factors, hypertension, diabetes, hyperlipidemia, obeisity.

Optimization of risk factors, smoking cessation (and I would add that alcohol also causes damage to the heart and arteries, though tobacco is worse.

Assess candidacy for statin therapy for primary prevention.

18. https://cardiab.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s12933-021-01359-7

There is a study of triple therapy (meaning THREE blood thinners) that showed improvement but that was in older patients who already have heart disease before Covid-19. So it doesn’t apply.

He says there aren’t any good studies of blood thinners in Long Covid-19 yet and it is not clear that the Long Covid people are worse as far as the cardiovascular risk than everyone else. And remember, these studies are on unvaccinated people, so for the year following the first year of Covid-19. We don’t have the results for vaccinated people. He says that if someone is high risk or has cardiac symptoms chest pain etc put on 81 mg aspirin and a statin (and work it up, of course. Do the testing.

For now use anticoagulation (blood thinners) only if there is clear evidence of thrombus: deep venous thrombosis or pulmonary embolus. Freedom covid-19 study showed major bleed risk 0.1-0.4%.

The cardiologist speaker has not started triple therapy on any patents given unknown benefit at this time, with known significant major bleeding risk. He recommends shared decision making, meaning the patient should be presented with the risks and choices. Um, ok, boil this talk down into three sentences. Good luck. EEEEEEE!

Part III: Summary.

Whether you had Covid-19 before being vaccinated or after, or aren’t sure if you ever had it, it is worth seeing your provider to check your blood pressure, do diabetes screening, stop smoking (anything, and I include vaping in that), reduce or eliminate alcohol, keep your weight reasonable, check your cholesterol and go to your provider if there is any weirdness post Covid-19. And if you have not been vaccinated, oh, my gosh. Unless you have an immunology problem where your immunologist says “NO!”, get vaccinated.

Lastly, I’ve heard many claims that death rates were “over reported” for Covid-19. No. In a death certificate, the acute injury or infection is reported FIRST and then other related causes. Such as: Covid-19, ischemic stroke, hypertension, tobacco overuse syndrome. There were MORE strokes and heart attacks and sudden death, with Covid-19 as the final straw in many people who already had cardiovascular disease. They died sooner than they would have if not infected. That is not over reporting.

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A friend, Brent Butler, took the photograph, used with permission. I think it shows how I felt after this talk. Yet I still have hope, because you can’t deal with something unless you know about it.

If you want a link for the talks, message me. Anyone can tune in.

Covid-19 continues to fandangle us. There. I verbed the Ragtag Daily Prompt: fandangle.

Marijuana update

https://newsroom.heart.org/news/marijuana-use-linked-with-increased-risk-of-heart-attack-heart-failure

Marijuana is still illegal at the federal level, but some states have legalized it. I agree with legalization but I don’t think of it as benign or safe at all. It’s clear that it can be addictive. A study of teens (with parental consent and where they paid the teens to try to quit for a month) showed that the teens that smoked daily had real trouble stopping, even when quite motivated. The U of WA Pain and Addiction telemedecine said that about half of daily users have “overuse syndrome” and have trouble quitting.

I worked with two people who were trying to quit. The big issues for them in quitting were insomnia and anxiety. Marijuana can suppress both anxiety and help with sleep. However, our brains do not really like that sort of daily interference. The neurons can remove receptors from the cell walls if they are feeling overwhelmed. It is like trying to listen to music with ear plugs. You turn the music up. The drug is the ear plug: when the earplugs are gone, the music is way too loud. We can’t really “turn the music down”, so it is not much fun letting the neurons recover.

With the edibles and THC vs the other one, it’s even more confusing. I had many patients taking edibles or tinctures to sleep. Some said, “Oh, it’s CBD, so it doesn’t make me high. So it is not addictive.” We do not know it that is true. With opioids, people can have opioid overuse syndrome without ever getting high, just from being on pain medicine as directed. And marijuana does not have only CBD and THC. There are over 300 different cannabinoids in the plants, and CBD and THC are just two of them. I have no idea if the edibles and tinctures have the other 298 or more and what they do to the cannibinoid receptors in our brains alone or in combination.

I don’t want to have any overuse syndrome: alcohol, opioids, gambling, marijuana, whatever. I know I can get off caffeine in 24 hours, though it involves an awful headache. I am nearly off coffee now, because my body only likes coffee when I have pneumonia. I quit coffee from 2014 to 2021 and now am quitting again.

The two studies in the article look at people who do not smoke tobacco and who are using marijuana. They are seeing an significant increase in heart disease, heart attacks, sudden death and congestive heart failure. Congestive heart failure is pump failure, where the heart does not pump correctly. This is a major problem, as you might guess.

Be careful out there.

I took the photograph at Fort Worden last week on a day where both the wind and the tide were howling.

Design and build

The Great Port Townsend Bay Kinetic Sculpture Race has some serious designers. I don’t know if they use a forge, but the sculptures have to go in the 52 degree water and come out a few blocks away. They have to move in the water, not just float. They have to have functional brakes, since they go over a significant hill and they are human powered. They have to get through the mudbog somehow.

Some go for power and some try to go light. This one looked the lightest this year.

Many have been in more than one race and the racers and their support teams are happy to lift the hood and explain.

The two bundles under the hood are lifejackets and floats for the water course. They have to carry all the parts on the sculpture. Each team can have support personnel. Our local school kids’ STEM groups had a Maker’s Fair near the water course. We have a group that has made an underwater robot to fish out lost crab pots. If the pot’s line is lost, crabs and other creatures can be trapped inside to die. The robot helps to fish out the trash that traps creatures.

Wikipedia lists ten locations for Kinetic Sculpture Races. Ours has been going for 35 years. Will someone forge a new vehicle that we start using daily? I hope so.

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: forge.

Marble triangles

I took this on August 31, the intricate and beautiful and a bit overwhelming marble floor of the Basilica di San Marco in Venice, Italy. They do not stop at triangles.

That’s just the floor. It is mind boggling.

For the Ragtag Daily Prompt: triangle.

Eating his words

After today’s international zoom on Cardiovascular Complications of Long Covid, I am thinking about one of my former partners. An ex-partner.

I got influenza in 2003. I was working full time plus all the call, had two small children, my mother had died two years before of cancer, and I was worrying about my marriage. Quite a stress load. I got influenza, running a temperature of 104 for a week and tachycardic. My heart rate was 100 at rest instead of my normal 62, and when I walked across the room slowly, it went up to the 130s or above and I got short of breath. I did not figure that out the fast heart rate immediately.

I tried to go back to work a week after I was out. By lunch time I thought, I feel like I’m dying. I stuck the pulse oximeter on my finger. My heart rate standing was 135. Oh. Normal is 60-100 and 135 is not ok. It’s exhausting. My office manager chose that moment to call me into her office and scold me for missing work. I was so freaked out by my heart rate that I did not show ANYONE in my clinic. I left and went to my physician, upstairs in the same building.

The tachycardia continued for two months.

I didn’t understand it, my Family Practice doctor didn’t understand it, and my partners accused me of malingering and were pissed. My instinct was to lie on the couch, so that’s what I did. Rest and wait. That level of tachycardia makes a person anxious, so my communication skills were challenged. After six weeks, I had an echocardiogram, which was normal EXCEPT for a fast heart rate. After two months, it went away. I staggered back to work, still frail and tired, and still down ten pounds.

One of my partners said, “I could understand you being out two months for heart disease or cancer, but not for influenza.”

At the time I didn’t say anything. That comment really, really hurt. I told myself that I should TRY to be a nice person and not wish that he would get a bad case of pneumonia with tachycardia. That took some major effort on my part.

Now with all the people with a fast heart rate after Covid-19, he can eat his words.