I used to stop by more
but the people were less and less
the interactions faded to grey
I didn’t feel loved
I used to be ok with that
not feeling loved
not feeling valued
but now I want to be loved
And I am loved, to my surprise
as if a little love
has opened longing
so that I want more love
I want to be loved and feel loved
I send everyone love
even those who have been mean
and the incessant downvoters
and those who have me blocked
or don’t answer or ignore
or leave the catbox when I show up
I send love to you too
but now that I have a small crack
of love in my life, like the sun
shining on a crack in concrete
the seed stirs in sun and water
and grows
written 12/26/17. I wrote this about another writing site. It is falling to bits, like a old building not maintained. It makes me sad, because it is where my sister used to write. She died in 2012 and I still often miss her.